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I've been officially diagnosed "crazy" for over 30 years now (most of my life, to be honest). I'm used to it by now. I've been hospitalized 4 times, and been put on more meds than I care to track. Still "crazy". I've been off-meds for a while now, and I don't know what terrifies me more, not having that crutch or the fact that I need it. To quote one of the novels I'm writing, "Broken things will always carry within them the memory of being broken - that's why it's easier for them to remain broken than to pretend to be whole." I've learned how to cope within being broken, but I keep hoping I'll meet other broken people fighting the same fight. I don't want to fight alone. Who does?
One thing I hate to hear is "it could be worse". It's a mistake to try to compare your pain to the pain of others. Just because I don't live in a refrigerator box doesn't make my crappy apartment into luxury living. Just because I can walk on my own two feet and have no visible wounds doesn't make my chronic pain less debilitating. Just because I'm not on a respirator doesn't mean that my breathing problems aren't frightening. Just because I'm not in a straight jacket doesn't mean I'm…Continue
Those who know me all too well have prevailed upon me to throw my thoughts out into the web and see what bounces back. I’ve always loathed the idea of sharing my personal business with others. Hell, I hardly even tell my family what I think. I talk a lot, don’t get me wrong, but mostly it’s all a whole lot of nothing. It’s just the surface of my tangled mind and not the actual knot beneath it all. Mostly, nobody notices that I’m slinging bull. That’s how I prefer it. And yet, here I am . . .…Continue