I wrote a post yesterday but was in a hurry when I left the house yesterday and neglected to post it, bummer. I had some good comments in there and a couple references to Stoicism, Thanks Bashooku. Yesterday I was compelled to not tell the truth to Karina. I was at a friends, who is a girl, but told Karina I was at my father's but I was not. I feel very guilty about not telling the freakin truth. I don't want to be that person anymore, telling lies. I life now is based on past lies that I have told so why would I continue lying? doesn't make sense. But I will come clean when she returns.
obviously, I am pre-occupied with Karina. She is a beautiful woman and I hope I can keep the relationship going on my part, I have no control of what her perspective is except to be honest, still have work to do, So today I will set my sites on keeping my mind occupied with positive thoughts of the future and hope for positive outcome.