The knowledge that I've recovered from this before, as momentary as it was, has given me hope that I can come back, again. Like I've said in my earlier posts, it is something that must be practiced just like any other skill. Last night was rough, but I did come back. This morning, I awoke, fully aware that that my practice had to begin immediately. My thoughts have to be monitored and my emotions analyzed. It is easy to fall back into the victim mentality: panic takes control, cognitive functioning diminishes, and any hope of learning/growing from the situation is lost. Fall down, get back up. It's all practice. Just like practicing any other skill, all components need to be analyzed for a better appreciation of the process and guaranteed growth. This, in my experience, has been a magnanimous leap in the right direction, for it has given me the perception of the student, not the victim. This doesn't mean that I won't get hurt again. I understand this. What it means is that I can turn that pain into a lesson, strength, and wisdom. I was a victim, I am a student, I will be a teacher, and I will become a master.
"A thousand mile journey starts with but a single step" -Lao Tzu-