This is what I wrote, yesterday;
Hi, Karina, I was wondering if you could help me out. I am kind of dwelling on where you and I stand and how your trip has effected our relationship. I will just be blunt and ask you if you plan on breaking up with me when you get back? The unknowing and suspense is driving me a little insane. If you do I will understand but not knowing is the hardest part. Deleting our conversation last week was just a way for me to let you go and enjoy your trip without me interfering, that is all. I meant no harm and apologize for acting immature. Please get back with me. I figure I will get to see you at the bus stations so I have that to look forward to. Enjoy the rest of your stay and I hope to hear from you soon...Scott
"I am not going to break up with you. I was the one worried you might do that to me. But I am not going to do that."
Then why the fuuck are you not contacting me? even to say hello or fucck off? Anything. She will be in Belgium soon to visit her fucck buddy so I have that to dwell on for the next several days, which is making me just a bit insane. Am I wrong to care? Why do I really give a shiit? Obviously, I have a lot of questions. It would be nice to just accept the situation and move the fuuck on.
I need advice, so let me have it...Scott